Confused and depressed about gayness?

ok, im super girly and pretty and love frilly glittery stuff, so people ume that im straight. but im so confused because honestly i hate to admit it, but i do like girls, im very open minded, i dont really have a "Certain type" theres tons of attractive females out there of all different races and styles, and i love them all, lol. but when i see a cute guy, i say "oh, he's cute" but i could never see myself dating a guy, honestly i don't want to ever date a guy! but i hate the lable "gay" and the word "" sounds so bad, so i don't wanna lable myself, and there are a few girls i know who r attractive but i cant talk to them b/c it would be so awkward for me, and i look so straight that no girl will ever prolly come talk to me, this is so hard for me. and i kinda like my friend that always "plays" around with me, she always says kinda gay stuff to me like "hey, i should give u a lap dance" and i like it but she claims shes straight, i just dont know what to do with myself, i hate feeling this way.